Sadness…

This past week has been a blur.

Our family experienced a sudden and unexpected death that directly affects the two most important people in my life – my children.

I have struggled writing this post – I have written it  – edited it – deleted it and re-written it several times.

Trying to think of a way to make it NOT about me – but about them and it still comes off as about me.

My ex husband passed away unexpectedly this past Monday.

Both of my children have been handling their grief in different ways.

There were no instructions – there was no will – there is no estate.

My daughter has taken control – has handled all arrangements and has done all this with a great deal of grace and dignity for a task that should not be thrust on someone so young. I am so very proud of her.

My son is having a much more difficult time with this. He has been a source of strength to all of us in his own way and I don’t even think he recognises it.

When I stated earlier this week that “life is short – love each other” I truly meant that because you never know when it can end.

Me – well I’m sad. While he may have been my ex-husband – we did have two amazing children together – we did have our good times and  while we have not had contact in months – it’s sad to know that we will never have contact again.

All that can be done at this point is to support the children – guide them through the legalities and let them know that they are truly and genuinely loved by many many people.