Lazy lazy me…

I have become a very lazy blogger – how sad…

It’s the inspiration that escapes me – life on the farm has been somewhat hum drum.

Time change stupidity now sees us doing chores in the darkness – the weather has just sucked and snow and cold is upon us.

After the deluge of water to a muck soaked ankle deep paddock of shit -sitting in the barn while it was pouring rain looking at the mess of our yard – I just wanted to cry.

Then I asked myself why the hell are we doing this?

Weekend comes and we scrape it all out down as deep as we can to some semblance of dry – Hubs building a shelter for our old girl and I turned to him and asked him…

“Why are we doing this?” – well he responds -“We are are cleaning the mud out to make it easier to move around”  – clearly he did not get the meaning but thats ok.

I said to him- no “why are we doing this? this farming thing? why do we put ourselves through this every year in the mud and rain and cold  – why?”

I think I caught him slightly off guard. He paused and said – “because it was our dream right? We said that our 5 year plan after the kids left home we would get a farm and we did.”

I just said – “is it worth it?” and he replied “does it make you happy?” and for once I honestly did not have an answer.

Does it make me happy? I asked him if it made him happy and of course he said – “if you are happy then I am happy”

So I guess I better do  find my damn happy!!!

I’ll start searching this weekend  – I know it’s there – I just need to find it again.

Stay tuned….