Edited greatly cause I think I started writing this in May – MAY!!!! time flies
They may or may not be upset that I am writing about them BUT mother prerogative (sorry darling).
I have a son – all ya’ll know that – they are my joy but also my worry in life.
We honestly have the best talks.
Usually when we are driving a semi long distance where we talk about how we would easily survive the zombie apocolypse and the like and other silly things.
They are lively conversations however due to stupid COVID we have not had that opp much lately.
We did yesterday – they leave on Tuesday to see their love in the US – after pre-covid flight tests and the what not – we had a great chat.
To be honest – it has been ages since our last good chat – this worries me and makes me feel a little guilty that I have not been there more but it is what that is.
They know they can reach out nite or day no matter the time and I will drop everything as I know I could with them if needed.
But still – it’s been ages since we had a good shits and giggles talk.
The last GREAT talk started with a question from them. They lost their father a few years back- they have been having bad dreams of guilt and what not to which I am sure I am not privy to the details but it still worries me in that sense.
I just wish I could do more – say more – be more.
But I do need to realize that they are a grown ass adult and sometimes I just need to let go.
So back to our last great chat – It started with a birth date question which morphed into how fat our cat is to the fact that the Knicks are basketball NOT baseball which then went onto a small sports education to mortality of myself and feelings of what if to room mates and the feelings of living in a house but feeling alone to financials to lord only knows what but ended on the inevitable “gotta go feed horses are you ok?” talk to which the reply was “ya for now”.
I’ll take a “ya for now” for now anyway.
I’m so happy that they can once again very carefully travel to see his girl – she is a gem and a wonderful human.
I stress when they travel – hell I stress when I travel but so much has changed since the last trip in January – I am praying for smooth sailing.
In order to NOT have to get up at 0230 to get them to the airport for an 0545 flight – I booked a hotel room at the airport tomorrow night.
We will order some room service – watch some TV and hopefully have one of our most amazing chats.
Our last chat ended wtih with Luv you from me to Love you too Maja – which always makes my heart sing.
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