Do’er of All (Glue)

Beware – this post is ENTIRELY about me and my many hats – it is self indulgent – cathartic – a way to get of my chest the feelings of the past couple of weeks and quite frankly a bitchy little pity party!!!

NOTE - I am not NOR will I ever take a dig at anyone in my circle of humans – I mean ZERO disrespect.

I am feeling incredibly sorry for myself RIGHT NOW and want to purge my thoughts.

You’ve been warned.

Are you ready??? CUZ HERE I GO!!!

I am the “do’er” of all things here.

I am the chauffeur of littles to and fro to what brings me GREAT joy. I am fortunate to see my grandkids EVERYDAY (except weekends because well no driving required) – on this I am not bitching – just stating a fact that brings me the bestest of feelings.

I am the cooker of meals – IMO a master chef that feeds the pickiest of eaters. To come up with a different meal everyday when all I just want to eat is instant FACKING RAMEN (mind the sodium) - I am tired of that – can someone just not cook ME a frekkin’ meal FFS!!!

I am the psychoanalyst/cheer leader – GIMME A “P” – GIMME AN “S” - - I would love to solve it all- BUT Bruh…I am almost out of spoons.

I am a personal shopper – NOTE – Gatorade not good for you and I need to invest in “Lays” stock cause the amount of $$ I spend on those thin crisps of calories is insane. (not for me FYI)

I am the cleaner of the abode – and of barn and of coop – rain or shine (more so rain right now) to keep the herd/flock in the style that they are accustomed to. NOTE- in their defense – they do lack opposable thumbs and actual brain power to do it themselves – so maybe I will defer on this one.

BUT cleaner of abode?? The dishwasher is right there – the laundry machine is quite easy to use and do you think those clothes fold themselves?

I am a master financial planner – bills get paid – food get purchased – there is no magical fairy that does that.

I am a keeper of secrets – shhhh – I have secrets and confidences and shhhh - those go to my grave.

I am quite frankly the “glue” – I am the glue that keeps this little part of our world from dissolving into the smoking crater of nothing.

See told ya – TOOT TOOT- that’s my horn.

I’m tired and I’m just meh.

Right now – right at this very moment in time – I am feeling overwhelmed and under appreciated and under valued.

BUT I did just close all 3 rings in my health goal today so there is that.

AND I know deep down in my core that I am not – deep down into the bottom of my being -I know that what I do every day is something that is worthwhile and important and it really means something.

But right now I will wallow in my little pity party of feeling sorry for myself because by tomorrow I will feel back to my warrior strong – PFFT girl – grow a pair self and start the day above ground.

We all get these feelings – every one of us and don’t tell me life is all sunshine and roses all the time cuz it ain’t.

We all feel that sense of WTF that washes over us from time to time and the true to core is to recognize it – embrace it and rise above it.

AND if you don’t think you can – PLEASE reach out and I will walk in that darkness with you until you find that light.

I AM the do’er of all and I am the glue!!!